I have not blogged for months and have been trying to find the words with which to resume blogging. It has not been easy, but I guess the only way is to … Just do it! So here I am months later, wading my way through the waters of several eventful months, struggling to find a coherent form of expression.
So many things happened in the past few months I don’t even know where to start from. First of all, I found myself struggling with my faith, questioning several things I had been taught from childhood. It was a really traumatic experience for me and I did not feel that I could keep blogging about faith when I had so little of it myself. But I had to learn to accept that I was not perfect and to love me anyway; to learn to see myself as God sees me, through the eyes of love. I cannot say I am there yet, but then, I am a work in progress.
Then I got married to my sweetheart and the love of my life. It was not an easy relationship , but there was no denying the love. Well, I got married, moved away from home then moved over to a whole new continent. So there’s a whole lot to blog about and if I do not start now, I might never be able to.
I recently began studying the book of Proverbs and it’s amazing how there’s always a word of wisdom for everyday. I am staying at a ministry Guest House in Kuala Lumpur thanks to some very good friends. Funds are tight and I have been watching my purse. Anyway, we got some new guests last night. This morning I woke up and read a chapter from Proverbs as usual. Then I heard movement from the kitchen and started a mini panic; my supplies! I moaned to myself, I don’t have money to buy more! Then the words from my devotion this morning came to me:One man gives freely, yet gains even more; another withholds unduly, but comes to poverty. A generous man will prosper; he who refreshes others will himself be refreshed. Proverbs 11:24-25 (NKJV)
So that came back to me and instantly I felt ashamed of myself. God is the one who provides anyway and if He asks me to share what He has so freely given, who am I to say No?
One other thing, if you are on facebook, we created an event where we are doing Nancy Leigh DeMoss‘ 31 Days of Prayer for Your
Husband with a spin. We broadened it and instead of ‘husband’ we used ‘Man’. So it’s 30 Days of Prayer for Your Man; this is to take in those who are not yet married. Feel free to join us. You can pray anywhere and anytime; it’s just nice to know that there are other women out there praying with you – over 2000 of them!
Now that I’ve placed my fingers on the keyboard (I wanted to say ‘pen to paper’), it will be so much easier especially as I have so much to blog about already. I try to keep a daily journal (the old fashioned kind in a notebook) of my experiences in this new place I’ve found myself. It promises to be an interesting year.
On that note, Happy New Year all!