After over a month of incarceration, I’m finally back online! We had problems with the internet server and it only just got fixed. It’s peculiar that this is also my first post of the year, so I want to say ‘Happy New Year!‘ to everyone. The last month of 2008 was a full one for me; so many things happened.
The year ended on a high for me. I went to a camp where we spent the last three days in prayer and fasting…it was an experience. It’s one that holds each year and this was the second year in which I fully participated. It was good as I was able to prayerfully plan for the next year. I have already started experiencing the benefits of waiting on the Lord, things which should have taken a lot of stress to achieve are happening with ease.
On an emotional level, my ex boyfriend came back on the scene. Now this is something which is a bit hard for me to write about, so maybe I won’t. He was my first boyfriend and also my first love, so maybe that explains some of it. But I could not seem to help being dragged into the past. Letting him go was the hardest and also the easiest thing I have ever done. The breakup was 99% my fault and it did not happen because I had stopped loving him neither was it one of those relationships were you sigh ‘good riddance’ at the end. Still, I cannot help feeling that he gave up on me; I was not important enough to hold on to. For some months before it ended, I had the feeling he wanted out and his actions after the breakup consolidated that feeling into certainty. Anyway I suppose we can make an attempt at being friends now, don’t know how that is going to work out but we’ll see. Either way, I’m hoping to finally achieve closure.
Finally, on New Year’s Day, we had a picnic. Our home was full with cousins and family friends so I took the young people out on a picnic. It was not too far from the house but far enough to be another world altogether. Everyone had fun and I was gratified; there’s just something about knowing you are responsible for the smiles on some faces. Here are some of the pictures we took below…