I have been travelling for a while; Port Harcourt to Calabar to Obudu back to Port Harcourt and now I’m in Lagos. I have hit new levels of tired in the past two weeks.

Right now I am attending the Nigerian Bar Association’s Annual General Conference as a rapporteur and I think I am working on reserve. I’m wondering what I can do to regain some strength even though I’m working a really tight schedule – 8am to 10pm everyday till Friday?

I would appreciate it if you could say a prayer for me.

I love to pray – really. To have conversations with God and just tell Him about stuff. Nothing is off limits. I talk to Him about everything – that I feel He needs to know. And that’s the problem. There are just some stuff that I just won’t let God touch. It’s funny, but it’s true. This week’s Cafe Chat question just brought a rueful smile to my lips.

There is nothing too small or too big for God to concern Himself with; my parents told me that and I honestly belive it. But how come there are some things I’d rather not talk to Him about? Before I go much further, let me share this week’s question:

God’s Word tells us that we can pray about “everything”; however what are some things in your life that you do not pray to God about? (You can tell about a specific situation, or give a general answer). Why don’t you pray to God about what you named above?

OK. First I’ll mention what I don’t like to pray about then maybe you could share what you don’t like to pray about?

Whenever I’m in trouble because of my foolishness, I stubbornly refuse to pray. I have this funny (and frankly stupid) idea that since I got myself in, I should get myself out. And then I proceed to try to do just that until it’s almost too late. Why do I do that?

I honestly don’t know. I think it’s tied to the fact that I am something of a control freak, I like to think that I can handle things myself. So I decide to pray, and I pray about the state of the nation (yep, truly), then I pray for my parents and my family, my friends, ask for leading for the day and meanwhile I am in hot water but don’t mention that.

Then sometimes I just feel there really isn’t much He can do. No I’m not being blasphemous. The thing is I got myself into trouble so I feel I deserve the consequences. There are some processes it’s just impossible to reverse…

So many reasons but I think they are just the reasoning of a foolish heart. Maybe it’s pride at the heart of everything…who knows? But I know so with His help, I’m working on it. What do you need to work on in your own life?

Philippians 4:6 Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.